the psychological abyss please be 1 meter step forward ...
drum too bad ... I did not come to him today to say something I feel ...
Simon adrian right ... I was always non-deserved Oo and I should so long to do something again from what Chris and I will ... vlt he has quite the ego eh ... I know my heart to take the net to what I do intend .. even if I am alone ... IMMOMENT
one considers not just me and my hand hurts ...
I scream for help but no one will notice ...
what is wrong with me ...
what's wrong with the world ...
there are people like me ...
but where are the now huh? ...
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Onde Pegar Shiny Stone No Pokemon Soul Silver?
...
is no one there for me IMMOMENT ... I was just at eric ... I can see why non-chris goes nothing .... why ...
is no one there for me IMMOMENT ... I was just at eric ... I can see why non-chris goes nothing .... why ...
Why Does My Stomach Get Gasy After Dinner
n I think I'm as white or non
I think today is the day I've long been predicted, and so shit xx nyo Eh I've seen what happened to me is people sry sry .. I do not feel like more people have ... that's forever ... I vlt 'm nothing .... nothing without CHRIS damn shit ey .... happy new you have love and so like me and none other than Rita simon is so ...
I think today is the day I've long been predicted, and so shit xx nyo Eh I've seen what happened to me is people sry sry .. I do not feel like more people have ... that's forever ... I vlt 'm nothing .... nothing without CHRIS damn shit ey .... happy new you have love and so like me and none other than Rita simon is so ...
Friday, December 30, 2005
Ativan For Fear Of Speaking
Summary of 2005
die So the best thing that happened was I suppose is when I met with Chris ^.^.. nyo and the worst after 2 months I again explained to him was TT
hm what is 2005 no matter how it all happens? .. ma
broadcast 12/30/2004: Thorsten met
01/01/2005: First Time Rock Factory / message that Angela and Bernd off TT
01/07/2005: Second time Rockfabrik know / learn Seppus (slightly drunk)
08/01/2005: With Thorsten , Angy and Simone in Oceans Twelve
01/12/2005: First time rehearsals
01/14/2005: (stay plus-Sunday) Rock factory Seppus ^ ^ muharhar / mother wants to put me into a home ... and lose Seppus xx
18/01/2005 : I may stay ...
01/22/2005: Karl hard to Thorsten
23/01/2005: My Birthday (With Chris and Mama to eat it and follow in Seppus) / Thorsten cheating on me with his ex-girlfriend
03/02/2005: 6 clock to get up .. 11.45 clock 432 towards Baesweiler with Rita in tow, I've picked up from the carnival event of their school / By Thorsten, Rita and Angela run by Baesweiler (Reyplatz), and the thing that Thorsten simply can not open a bottle and glass fragments swallows rofl ... and we run to Angy's father ... / Thorsten circuit makes Oo
04/02/2005: 14 Clock With Angy with Rita and her together Muzen xD
bake 10/02/2005: Thorsten makes final circuit Oo
11/02/2005: Testimonies = _ =
02/18/2005: Rita and I miss the Wizo concert in Krefeld; _; (because tickets were sold out)
02/19/2005: First time to work: with Rita, Cynthia and Angy in youth disco in GK it and follow in search of nose (Philipp)
05/03/2005 (brochures distributed)
03/13/2005: My Schätzke Rita is 15 ^ - ^
03/17/2005: with Rita and Angy, and ghetto blaster in Wurmauenpark
19/03/2005: Punk Festival in HOT in Herzogenrath with Homer and Gerrit
03/20/2005 : At Rita's birthday party / da kip ^ ^
03/23/2005: Rock out with Greg xD ^ ^
27/03/2005: Rock out with Nochma GregorxD / dannach slept under Stefan x.xiiieks / I miss the death-day celebration of my grandpa xx
03/30/2005 I'm Rita and Alex brought together
31/03/2005: Opa one years dead / When Angy and slept with her, Eva and Linda was in Süggerath
04/10/2005: Alex's birthday. Rita and I are there, we watch School of Rock
16/04/2005: With Alex and Rita in the youth center for youth disco
04/17/2005: Yeah .. my first time with Seppus xD
04/23/2005: When Alex's birthday with Rita xD I'm learning Tobi, steff and felix know ..
I, "I see the moon only once a non-double" or authoritative, how many clock we have? Me: if I do one eye, we 0:36 clock when I'm on both eyes ... is all
Felix: nuts * *
sustained dose or the thing with the mushroom xD felix: where are my t * * impact on plastic mushroom mushrooms to eat! /
right the first time and puking in rita found xx
neeiiin I am still fine I can not just go to the joint ... which joints? xD
29/04/2005: Rita, Laura and I pull into the garden house to xD Sms to Sascha: GUDN we Morgn foll to sin un I'm faster? un ri lassn nor placental non-roller, still had time does un amen space around it. Un di is schulz
30/04/2005: On the night of the 29th Alex makes the 30.4 circuit with Rita xx I put myself to bed by 14 clock because I go dirty
05/01/2005: At the pool with Angy Rita xD
05/03/2005: I get my Läppi (which I developed myself from my money 've bought) rofl
07/05/2005: After I've known Chris elle ne long time, I see him and cheer Maifest trust me net him about xx Cynthia is attending ... Angy and Rita are in Poland.
05/08/2005: Aw, comic Gothic type who never wanted to come back xD reported
05/12/2005: My room is finally painted white and my old bookcase comes out
05/13/2005: I go to the hairdresser and let me a punk hairstyle make dannach I drive to Angy and shock them xD
14/05/2005: THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE !!!!! I'll be with Chris ^ ^ Rita, Chris, Simon, Angy and I go aufn Pfingstmarkt and Chris throws himself into the hedge rofl xD I come in to Angy and Chris Simon and sit around there ... I've watched wie'n cyclist xD We are all in anyway with tobi, steff, ali i think xD
05/20/2005: In with Angy Rita and Seppus video night xD Angy takelt to like anything
05/21/2005: our one-week Chris has a great idea xD candles with vanilla pudding and strawberries .. I his war Picks * _ *
22/05/2005: Chris, Steff, Simon, Chris and I are going together to the recreation area in Übach
24/05/2005: New bookcase given
05/25/2005: come Kadda / By Chris, Tobi and Steff in Star Wars 3
26/05/2005: I'm meeting with Andy / My first circle of death with chris, christopher, steff, good, simon, authoritative and Kadda
It ends in a fiasco xx
05/31/2005: Yeah I finally have my external burner ... ROFL
06/04/2005: With Chris and Steff at Francipani, we get to his brother Simon from / Barbecue at Chris with Chris, Simon, Rita / I at Penn Steff
06/05/2005: With Chris nochma with Christoph xD
06/06/2005: Chris is sick; _; After I got my period non says chris is was time to Doctor and so xx Joah Seppus blame everything
09/06/2005: I need more net out because everything is ok xD we are looking forward trying to make a happy day
06/12/2005: Chris, Tobi, and Steff look at him, her room The Haunting xD
14.06.2005: We are 1 month's time ... and he is in Wuppertal get his PC nyo xD ... I gave him a gift NEN slipknot button again ... and I'm slightly drunk rofl .. we meet at simon at aral
06/18/2005: 15 clock presence comprehensive school GK , Chris, Simon, Steff are there too xD cynthia SIDN and Rita in the band anyway ;-) From 19 clock circle of death at christoph ... after 6 bottles of beer and grain-Ner bottle I can still remember having said to chris chris: who has the whole bottle grain emptied ... Chris: which determines the same sick xD
simon fluctuating ausm I occasionally get out and to embrace it ... and say I love you Rita!
Dannach everything goes black ...
19/06/2005: I wake up in the hospital after calming Alkvergiftung visit ... rita, chris and chris ... get me I'll punch at 8 clock ausm hospital from me and pull the needle with which I myself have been hanging on the drip-_. . come "in the state still not quite sober at home ... after chris has thrown me out ... I come in the afternoon chris simon is at an ... too ... we get along and when I puke, thanks xD rofl
Then summer camp meeting
20/06/2005: Steff and Tobi, as well as Simon and Kadda make statements
06/21/2005: I am meeting with Thorsten xx / chris confess that I've rumgeknutscht with thorsten
23/06/2005: Simon and Rita come together
24/06/2005: Chris must be the farewell ceremony of the 10 with him at the school waiting tables
06/25/2005: Moritz at rehearsals with Chris, Christopher and Tobi / video evening
30/06/2005: Chris is in Dusseldorf and bring me a Che Guevara t-shirt with
01/07/2005: When Simon slept
03/07/2005: Bike Tour with Chris, Rita Simon, Steff, then with Peter because Chris had broken his mature
05/07/2005: Last day of school for me
07/09/2005. Chris makes the first connection
07/10/2005: When Angela Laura, Rita, Lucky, Cay, Ina Vampire
gamble 07/11/2005: With Chris reconciled
07/12/2005: Room nochma
emphasize 13/07/2005: camping with Steff, Dennis, Fabian, Chris, Rita, Peter
0Uhr mother of Rita brings us to / from Rita slept ... chris is a stoner and drunken idiot xD
07/15/2005: With Thorsten taken
07/16/2005: Shopping in Heinsberg, Alsdorf , Aachen
17/07/2005: When Thorsten, with Angy (Rita and Simon are there too), they swim in the pool = _ =, at chris (reconciliation)
07/20/2005: THE SAD DAY OF MY LIFE .... Chris makes circuit ... into the matter because Echtz
21-22.7.05: to therapy Chris xx
07/23/2005: SIDN Rita and Simon together one months
07/25/2005: Chris thinks we remain friends ...
29.07.2005: Start of summer camp
Joah what there was still so very much ... sex with chris * _ * v. .. i tried the account of my mother and had to tap xx ne extremely high internet bill is the total of all months of 1400 € most popu .. so for Christmas and nothing ... nyo
In the summer holidays and then for the first time Aoxomoxoa b9 ... after the summer vacation review net managed to repeat the 9th grade so ... now 9D which resolves to the half ... I will then 6Jungen in the C xD
will of course:
08.26.2005: worm floor with Chris, Rita, Simon, Cynthia, Chris ... I learn Ejnar, Nils, Andreas and Markus xDdie Übach know leudz halt ... and knutsch with chris on the promises me it will take nothing around it until we get together ... Rita brings angy and Cynthia back home are not quite so sober are xD I get ritas Flauschi-black sweater and she borrowed my jacket simon says xD I could drink a beer ^ ^ because I've promised after the alkvergiftung nothing more to drink
27/08/2005: Adrian and I am learning to know xD Hemmy nochn part of Übach leudz and Chris and I come together non-och because he thinks it went like this ... and non Cynthia is totally drunk and flirts with Simon and Mark xD I take you home
09/03/2005: Town Fair ... chris is shit to me, laura, Philip, Martin and Übach cheer me up xD leudz Adrian and cotton candy rofl .. Adrian and I exchange cell phone numbers from
09/16/2005: Will tell non xP
Which of the winds now does not have any stand that goes up and gets down one!
11:10:05: My first LAN with Übach leudz and
12:10:05 13.10.05: Two small LANs with Adrian
15:10:05: Rita and I are going kövit to buy in the city fabric and take Hendrik and his buddy = _ =
16:10:05: will also reveal non-xP
30/10/2005: Celebrate Halloween with Irina With Stefan .. dannach Übach
2:11:05: Gregory is 18 ^ - ^
10.11.05: Christian Stilow (the type in I mti ausm house where we were eating even) birthday and is eventually taken off this year T ^ T
Joah Hendrik also has birthday -.-
16.11.05: No it will reveal non-xD
25/11/2005: lower levels afternoon with 150 small drecksblagen
6:12:05: Thorsten's birthday ...
7-8.12.05: Anna-Marie tried to take her own life and I go visit her in hospital
9:12:05: By Irina Fehnaz cheer and Christmas market
10:12:05: SL-After meeting
Joah and since there were still the November con and all the things Avicot xD is actually in the lj's all schonma
At Christmas I was alone ...'ve got nothing ... and so have lots of stress with NEM people had seen and Rita much too little I think , - and I gave her for Christmas jah the lord of the Titanium rings gift ring and YES I've gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanz love doll and she never wants to lose than my best friend; _;
Simon, I really never again see so often ... n why uu
Nyo ... then there was Sectumsempra .. . but the story is also told not operate ... it is an old friend so much I can ^ ^ and I like him say xD .. joah SIDN Übach happens in some things ... I've gezofft with hemmy and adrian ma. . or had a phase where I wanted to kill me and Mark has taught me ... hemmy thinks highly of his friends the good guy isn ... Christmas with Mark Adrian has puked rofl ... Merry Christmas xx.nyo then with the Mercedes stars steal and 3 mhm be present for days off. _. Oh nyo
am SV Member after the summer holidays now and still busy writing articles for the school paper ... have begun to listen to trance and I'm actually still goth-punk set standard .... am still often depressing, but I've stressed the connection nch changed by chris ... hm ... we are good friends again and hope it stays that way ... we'll see you again tomorrow at simon xD oh yeah and my dad is finally taken off! * Smile * Btw
imoment my GPA: EK: total 2
hist: total 2
M: 1.Arbeit 3 -
E: 1.Arbeit 4-4 -
Fri: total 2
D: total 2
Ku: 1 . work 2 -
Bio: test 2 -
Ph: total 3-4
this in mind: stay true ~ ~ and until next year 2006
I drink to ...
on good friends,
lost love, to old gods
and new goals.
On the GNZ normal madness,
on what once was. Then it all ends
And a new year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the run
some things better in 2006 and I in touch with the best people in the world do not lose !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* * umknuddel
die So the best thing that happened was I suppose is when I met with Chris ^.^.. nyo and the worst after 2 months I again explained to him was TT
hm what is 2005 no matter how it all happens? .. ma
broadcast 12/30/2004: Thorsten met
01/01/2005: First Time Rock Factory / message that Angela and Bernd off TT
01/07/2005: Second time Rockfabrik know / learn Seppus (slightly drunk)
08/01/2005: With Thorsten , Angy and Simone in Oceans Twelve
01/12/2005: First time rehearsals
01/14/2005: (stay plus-Sunday) Rock factory Seppus ^ ^ muharhar / mother wants to put me into a home ... and lose Seppus xx
18/01/2005 : I may stay ...
01/22/2005: Karl hard to Thorsten
23/01/2005: My Birthday (With Chris and Mama to eat it and follow in Seppus) / Thorsten cheating on me with his ex-girlfriend
03/02/2005: 6 clock to get up .. 11.45 clock 432 towards Baesweiler with Rita in tow, I've picked up from the carnival event of their school / By Thorsten, Rita and Angela run by Baesweiler (Reyplatz), and the thing that Thorsten simply can not open a bottle and glass fragments swallows rofl ... and we run to Angy's father ... / Thorsten circuit makes Oo
04/02/2005: 14 Clock With Angy with Rita and her together Muzen xD
bake 10/02/2005: Thorsten makes final circuit Oo
11/02/2005: Testimonies = _ =
02/18/2005: Rita and I miss the Wizo concert in Krefeld; _; (because tickets were sold out)
02/19/2005: First time to work: with Rita, Cynthia and Angy in youth disco in GK it and follow in search of nose (Philipp)
05/03/2005 (brochures distributed)
03/13/2005: My Schätzke Rita is 15 ^ - ^
03/17/2005: with Rita and Angy, and ghetto blaster in Wurmauenpark
19/03/2005: Punk Festival in HOT in Herzogenrath with Homer and Gerrit
03/20/2005 : At Rita's birthday party / da kip ^ ^
03/23/2005: Rock out with Greg xD ^ ^
27/03/2005: Rock out with Nochma GregorxD / dannach slept under Stefan x.xiiieks / I miss the death-day celebration of my grandpa xx
03/30/2005 I'm Rita and Alex brought together
31/03/2005: Opa one years dead / When Angy and slept with her, Eva and Linda was in Süggerath
04/10/2005: Alex's birthday. Rita and I are there, we watch School of Rock
16/04/2005: With Alex and Rita in the youth center for youth disco
04/17/2005: Yeah .. my first time with Seppus xD
04/23/2005: When Alex's birthday with Rita xD I'm learning Tobi, steff and felix know ..
I, "I see the moon only once a non-double" or authoritative, how many clock we have? Me: if I do one eye, we 0:36 clock when I'm on both eyes ... is all
Felix: nuts * *
sustained dose or the thing with the mushroom xD felix: where are my t * * impact on plastic mushroom mushrooms to eat! /
right the first time and puking in rita found xx
neeiiin I am still fine I can not just go to the joint ... which joints? xD
29/04/2005: Rita, Laura and I pull into the garden house to xD Sms to Sascha: GUDN we Morgn foll to sin un I'm faster? un ri lassn nor placental non-roller, still had time does un amen space around it. Un di is schulz
30/04/2005: On the night of the 29th Alex makes the 30.4 circuit with Rita xx I put myself to bed by 14 clock because I go dirty
05/01/2005: At the pool with Angy Rita xD
05/03/2005: I get my Läppi (which I developed myself from my money 've bought) rofl
07/05/2005: After I've known Chris elle ne long time, I see him and cheer Maifest trust me net him about xx Cynthia is attending ... Angy and Rita are in Poland.
05/08/2005: Aw, comic Gothic type who never wanted to come back xD reported
05/12/2005: My room is finally painted white and my old bookcase comes out
05/13/2005: I go to the hairdresser and let me a punk hairstyle make dannach I drive to Angy and shock them xD
14/05/2005: THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE !!!!! I'll be with Chris ^ ^ Rita, Chris, Simon, Angy and I go aufn Pfingstmarkt and Chris throws himself into the hedge rofl xD I come in to Angy and Chris Simon and sit around there ... I've watched wie'n cyclist xD We are all in anyway with tobi, steff, ali i think xD
05/20/2005: In with Angy Rita and Seppus video night xD Angy takelt to like anything
05/21/2005: our one-week Chris has a great idea xD candles with vanilla pudding and strawberries .. I his war Picks * _ *
22/05/2005: Chris, Steff, Simon, Chris and I are going together to the recreation area in Übach
24/05/2005: New bookcase given
05/25/2005: come Kadda / By Chris, Tobi and Steff in Star Wars 3
26/05/2005: I'm meeting with Andy / My first circle of death with chris, christopher, steff, good, simon, authoritative and Kadda
It ends in a fiasco xx
05/31/2005: Yeah I finally have my external burner ... ROFL
06/04/2005: With Chris and Steff at Francipani, we get to his brother Simon from / Barbecue at Chris with Chris, Simon, Rita / I at Penn Steff
06/05/2005: With Chris nochma with Christoph xD
06/06/2005: Chris is sick; _; After I got my period non says chris is was time to Doctor and so xx Joah Seppus blame everything
09/06/2005: I need more net out because everything is ok xD we are looking forward trying to make a happy day
06/12/2005: Chris, Tobi, and Steff look at him, her room The Haunting xD
14.06.2005: We are 1 month's time ... and he is in Wuppertal get his PC nyo xD ... I gave him a gift NEN slipknot button again ... and I'm slightly drunk rofl .. we meet at simon at aral
06/18/2005: 15 clock presence comprehensive school GK , Chris, Simon, Steff are there too xD cynthia SIDN and Rita in the band anyway ;-) From 19 clock circle of death at christoph ... after 6 bottles of beer and grain-Ner bottle I can still remember having said to chris chris: who has the whole bottle grain emptied ... Chris: which determines the same sick xD
simon fluctuating ausm I occasionally get out and to embrace it ... and say I love you Rita!
Dannach everything goes black ...
19/06/2005: I wake up in the hospital after calming Alkvergiftung visit ... rita, chris and chris ... get me I'll punch at 8 clock ausm hospital from me and pull the needle with which I myself have been hanging on the drip-_. . come "in the state still not quite sober at home ... after chris has thrown me out ... I come in the afternoon chris simon is at an ... too ... we get along and when I puke, thanks xD rofl
Then summer camp meeting
20/06/2005: Steff and Tobi, as well as Simon and Kadda make statements
06/21/2005: I am meeting with Thorsten xx / chris confess that I've rumgeknutscht with thorsten
23/06/2005: Simon and Rita come together
24/06/2005: Chris must be the farewell ceremony of the 10 with him at the school waiting tables
06/25/2005: Moritz at rehearsals with Chris, Christopher and Tobi / video evening
30/06/2005: Chris is in Dusseldorf and bring me a Che Guevara t-shirt with
01/07/2005: When Simon slept
03/07/2005: Bike Tour with Chris, Rita Simon, Steff, then with Peter because Chris had broken his mature
05/07/2005: Last day of school for me
07/09/2005. Chris makes the first connection
07/10/2005: When Angela Laura, Rita, Lucky, Cay, Ina Vampire
gamble 07/11/2005: With Chris reconciled
07/12/2005: Room nochma
emphasize 13/07/2005: camping with Steff, Dennis, Fabian, Chris, Rita, Peter
0Uhr mother of Rita brings us to / from Rita slept ... chris is a stoner and drunken idiot xD
07/15/2005: With Thorsten taken
07/16/2005: Shopping in Heinsberg, Alsdorf , Aachen
17/07/2005: When Thorsten, with Angy (Rita and Simon are there too), they swim in the pool = _ =, at chris (reconciliation)
07/20/2005: THE SAD DAY OF MY LIFE .... Chris makes circuit ... into the matter because Echtz
21-22.7.05: to therapy Chris xx
07/23/2005: SIDN Rita and Simon together one months
07/25/2005: Chris thinks we remain friends ...
29.07.2005: Start of summer camp
Joah what there was still so very much ... sex with chris * _ * v. .. i tried the account of my mother and had to tap xx ne extremely high internet bill is the total of all months of 1400 € most popu .. so for Christmas and nothing ... nyo
In the summer holidays and then for the first time Aoxomoxoa b9 ... after the summer vacation review net managed to repeat the 9th grade so ... now 9D which resolves to the half ... I will then 6Jungen in the C xD
will of course:
08.26.2005: worm floor with Chris, Rita, Simon, Cynthia, Chris ... I learn Ejnar, Nils, Andreas and Markus xDdie Übach know leudz halt ... and knutsch with chris on the promises me it will take nothing around it until we get together ... Rita brings angy and Cynthia back home are not quite so sober are xD I get ritas Flauschi-black sweater and she borrowed my jacket simon says xD I could drink a beer ^ ^ because I've promised after the alkvergiftung nothing more to drink
27/08/2005: Adrian and I am learning to know xD Hemmy nochn part of Übach leudz and Chris and I come together non-och because he thinks it went like this ... and non Cynthia is totally drunk and flirts with Simon and Mark xD I take you home
09/03/2005: Town Fair ... chris is shit to me, laura, Philip, Martin and Übach cheer me up xD leudz Adrian and cotton candy rofl .. Adrian and I exchange cell phone numbers from
09/16/2005: Will tell non xP
Which of the winds now does not have any stand that goes up and gets down one!
11:10:05: My first LAN with Übach leudz and
12:10:05 13.10.05: Two small LANs with Adrian
15:10:05: Rita and I are going kövit to buy in the city fabric and take Hendrik and his buddy = _ =
16:10:05: will also reveal non-xP
30/10/2005: Celebrate Halloween with Irina With Stefan .. dannach Übach
2:11:05: Gregory is 18 ^ - ^
10.11.05: Christian Stilow (the type in I mti ausm house where we were eating even) birthday and is eventually taken off this year T ^ T
Joah Hendrik also has birthday -.-
16.11.05: No it will reveal non-xD
25/11/2005: lower levels afternoon with 150 small drecksblagen
6:12:05: Thorsten's birthday ...
7-8.12.05: Anna-Marie tried to take her own life and I go visit her in hospital
9:12:05: By Irina Fehnaz cheer and Christmas market
10:12:05: SL-After meeting
Joah and since there were still the November con and all the things Avicot xD is actually in the lj's all schonma
At Christmas I was alone ...'ve got nothing ... and so have lots of stress with NEM people had seen and Rita much too little I think , - and I gave her for Christmas jah the lord of the Titanium rings gift ring and YES I've gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanz love doll and she never wants to lose than my best friend; _;
Simon, I really never again see so often ... n why uu
Nyo ... then there was Sectumsempra .. . but the story is also told not operate ... it is an old friend so much I can ^ ^ and I like him say xD .. joah SIDN Übach happens in some things ... I've gezofft with hemmy and adrian ma. . or had a phase where I wanted to kill me and Mark has taught me ... hemmy thinks highly of his friends the good guy isn ... Christmas with Mark Adrian has puked rofl ... Merry Christmas xx.nyo then with the Mercedes stars steal and 3 mhm be present for days off. _. Oh nyo
am SV Member after the summer holidays now and still busy writing articles for the school paper ... have begun to listen to trance and I'm actually still goth-punk set standard .... am still often depressing, but I've stressed the connection nch changed by chris ... hm ... we are good friends again and hope it stays that way ... we'll see you again tomorrow at simon xD oh yeah and my dad is finally taken off! * Smile * Btw
imoment my GPA: EK: total 2
hist: total 2
M: 1.Arbeit 3 -
E: 1.Arbeit 4-4 -
Fri: total 2
D: total 2
Ku: 1 . work 2 -
Bio: test 2 -
Ph: total 3-4
this in mind: stay true ~ ~ and until next year 2006
I drink to ...
on good friends,
lost love, to old gods
and new goals.
On the GNZ normal madness,
on what once was. Then it all ends
And a new year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the run
some things better in 2006 and I in touch with the best people in the world do not lose !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* * umknuddel
Plasma Donations Los Angeles
Blue hair
... or the story of today ... sitting IMMOMENT läppi with ner tint in the hair in front of tomorrow ... I'm simon and authoritative new year celebrated today xD I've been in the city and I've bought tint ... which really should be black ... I hope all the ma xD leudz IMMOMENT sit around and look at hemmy NEN film. I use skype again and Rita must babysit. _. * Happy * I schonma overnight
me just 1.15 € for a missing New Year's gift xD * IMMOMENT write down what I decide *
userin is N / A 1.15 € you can leave her after the beep or a schokistück
... or the story of today ... sitting IMMOMENT läppi with ner tint in the hair in front of tomorrow ... I'm simon and authoritative new year celebrated today xD I've been in the city and I've bought tint ... which really should be black ... I hope all the ma xD leudz IMMOMENT sit around and look at hemmy NEN film. I use skype again and Rita must babysit. _. * Happy * I schonma overnight
me just 1.15 € for a missing New Year's gift xD * IMMOMENT write down what I decide *
userin is N / A 1.15 € you can leave her after the beep or a schokistück
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Is Listerine Good For Thrush
was back up this morning at 6 or 6:30 on the pc. _. My mother was excited just yet nyo xD was with Simon, Rita was there ^ - ^ and we have the verarsche of spaceship looked enterprise xD
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Digital Converter Box Vcr Splitter
yawn So ...
I am today clock tomorrow at 6 went to bed skype says hello ;)... wanted actually get up at 8 again ... have missed out the clock and woke up at 3:30 .. dannach I went into the city because I really wanted to have ne new pants ... I've bought nothing but then xDdann binnsch to my rita Schätzke-driven and until shortly before 10 as ^ - ^
I am today clock tomorrow at 6 went to bed skype says hello ;)... wanted actually get up at 8 again ... have missed out the clock and woke up at 3:30 .. dannach I went into the city because I really wanted to have ne new pants ... I've bought nothing but then xDdann binnsch to my rita Schätzke-driven and until shortly before 10 as ^ - ^
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
State College Pa And Brazilian Wax
Who is this man? ...
why he knows so much about me ... and where ...
Sectumsempra who are you? ...
why he knows so much about me ... and where ...
Sectumsempra who are you? ...
Where Can I Watch P90x For Free Veoh
time to time as a supplement
was yesterday ^ by my rita-Schätzke ^ and it has suppa doll on the ring happy xD I got from her a total Rofels book by helge schneider get xDDDDDDDDD des is so lol ^ ^ and a homemade cookie house .. abba the forgotten habsch =-= * at encouraging authoritative pc is automatically *. previously she was still in the Christmas pageant, which was also totally rofl xD istn girl and the baby Jesus is jessica xD about 22 clock Binsch then again ma mitm Übach train to run. _. nyo ...
was yesterday ^ by my rita-Schätzke ^ and it has suppa doll on the ring happy xD I got from her a total Rofels book by helge schneider get xDDDDDDDDD des is so lol ^ ^ and a homemade cookie house .. abba the forgotten habsch =-= * at encouraging authoritative pc is automatically *. previously she was still in the Christmas pageant, which was also totally rofl xD istn girl and the baby Jesus is jessica xD about 22 clock Binsch then again ma mitm Übach train to run. _. nyo ...
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Harlem Globetrotter Pinball Machine
Have all day today in front of the PC hung ... first NEN finished writing articles, then watched the Exorcism of Emily Rose ... Joah and just my only Christmas wish has come true but still ... I do have got no material gifts or money but wat else. For more information please ask me xD
Monday, June 27, 2005
Does Cm Stop Before Your Period
It's over.
Sun is now so it will be broken apart. I had torn the ass kitten again to where it was possible, but they had to destroy it.
I have a very long time nothing written here. Is because I've nunmal bought the book in which I wrote to the last. Since this is now full but, I must escape back to my journal. And rejoice: it is the darkest chapter that I write.
ran for months my relationship with my girlfriend no longer correct. We are constantly zofften, were annoying us constantly. We saw less and less. But I loved my girlfriend and do it still. So I decided to make fire again and save the whole. I went over to her, gave her more time to meet their Zickereien tried to tolerate what me, even if self-praise stinks, but very well managed. There was something in motion, was actually getting better. The relationship gave me back a lot of fun, I could laugh and was happy. Until the fatal day came when I returned from Poland. I had been away for a week, the e-mail correspondence with my old man had me believe that she actually missed me. If they have done so, whatever. Well, I already weeks had discussed with her that she could still go to the event taking place that evening open-air, but I would not. After 16 hours of bus probably understandable. The next day we were right then, told that we had made the week so were, as always in bed, had sex and really it was a sauschöner day. However, there was something different with it. Well, I thought nothing of it further. Strangely, the rapid upward curve of the relationship has stagnated right now. That surprised me. Finally, this week had increased the desire, very much.
But then, last Wednesday, met me a hammer. I asked my friend if we go before I went to tennis training would see. She said no because she had to learn for their exams. I believed her, she has actually tests. So I went to the training and had Fun. Lumpkins was so friendly to us (Fe and me) with you after training. We drove past the house, of course, my girlfriend and I looked there, as always. But what I saw, I erfeute not - it slammed me down. My old lady got in a full of asshole idiots out of the car, whose stupidity is allowed beyond words. She wanted to learn, then? Aha, interesting way. - I was ready. You lied to me then. What reason did they do?
I let fly after all, had nothing for the nerves. WoE No, no homework, nothing. My sister finally convinced me to go with her to the party on the occasion of her last class of the written examination. My sister is yes to the same school as my girlfriend. Consequently, know their classmates my girlfriend and me. Me by sight, but they know that I am the brother. Blah.
Anyway, when the alcohol the girls in their theatrical stages Laber did and I put on the MP3 player found out my sister something she could not tell me in my current major depressive constitution. Also in relation to the nearby train tracks, with whom I flirted. Zugausweichen nunmal is a great game.
The next day - I was not in school, sleep could not. - It was just after twelve, my sister said, had learned what to do. And I broke down: my friend had on the open-air with said guy was going. It was seen as she kissed him and held hands with him.
you betrayed me so ... Why the bloody hell are you doing this? I had you ever been a reason? Great way to thank me for well over a half years. A six-hour discussion followed with my girlfriend. Just four hours, they denied the incident. She would have never told me. And almost four weeks, ago. I sent them home. At that moment I wanted to die. Just die. The pain I felt was just all killing. She was the first man, who managed to break my pride. Thank you, thank you. It does still hurt so much, to destroy this kind of relationship. If she can not just say that they do not feel has more? But apparently they still had the. She would have had no reason, be it just happened. But why has it still made with the flat wanker? Why they lied to me to see him? - I do not know to this day. She said yes, "as daft as it sounds, I did not mean to hurt in some way." - "Have you SUUUPER attempt it, honest bitch!".. That was the conversation about this.
separated Anyway, I am on the night of Friday to Saturday from her. I could not live with that. The relationship and trust had been destroyed. Irretrievably. It is still so surreal to me as though I were beside me and looked at a very stressful film. But in the moments where I find the reality, the pain hits me with the force of a bullet.
Well, it was over. I had called her at night, she asked to come to the pub. But she would not. I drank a brief and went. And I made the decision. I called her again. She wanted to come back, so I found myself compelled to finish the whole thing on the phone. No sooner had I placed the receiver out of hand, came over me Haulkrampf as I had never seen him. I did not know how this is to cry. For years I had it not done more. I grabbed my dog, Backpack and a Six-Pack Premium Pils, left the house, took me to the Viking area and got drunk evil. The Jägermeister helped.
But instead of me feeling better two days later, it got worse. I could not bear the thought of having it not happen again in his arms, to have it not happen again kissed. I could not sleep once again. I slept the weekend with only three or four hours. And so unmotivated these days as I was never was. So I wrote her a text message saying that I wanted to meet with her. I was even willing to forgive her and start over again.
Today I met with her. Viking area. It was already there when I arrived. We talked. But the way we were sitting there hurt so scary, that's indescribable. She was so near and yet so far. Right next to me was the little body that I love you with every fiber. But the tape was broken.
When we went we were annoying the mosquitoes to the benches, I opened a beer, smoked the fourth cigarette. I could not stand it anymore. I took her in his arms. It afforded me not only pressed it to correct. We had not long embraces. We sat a long time so that the knot swelled in my neck, she wept. I asked them how they see it. Whether a new start of it perhaps would be to try it just once more. She said she had only to itself to come clean themselves suffer again. Anyone who believes it. Even in that moment, she lied to me. I know it. We will never get back together. Never. It hurt incredibly. Again and again I learned new heights in negative territory.
It started to rain, the Clock gene walked nine. Their time - they had to go home. She asked me to accompany them. I did not at first. Reluctantly I went.
She took my hand. It was, as always, but yet so strange, so painful. In their corner, the point of departure had come. I looked at her a long time. I probably had tears in his eyes. So will you. I wanted to kiss her, but did not trust me. The next high point. Until she finally said "Kiss me.". I let mich nicht zweimal bitten. Zum wohl letzten Male küsste ich sie. Ich hatte sie nie zuvor so geküsst. Es war nunmal der Abschied. Wir sagten uns, dass wir uns lieben, was nicht gerade hilfreich war, in diesem Moment. Sie musste gehen. Ich blieb stehen, sah ihr die ersten drei Schritte nach, drehte mich um. Der Wikingerplatz, dort wollte ich wieder hin. Man ist so ungestört dort, nie kommt jemand vorbei. Es hätte nur mich und meine Melancholie gegeben. Doch ich hatte keine Kraft dazu. Nach 20 Metern schon setzte ich mich an eine Wiese, unterdrückte den Heulkrampf, öffnete das zweite Bier. Ich sah ihr weiter nach, bis sie verschwand.
Und dann, plötzlich, ging es mir besser. Ich hatte getan, was ich noch tun wollte. Es tut noch always hurt, but at least I am sure that the relationship was not a failure to me and give it a second time will probably. My pride was suddenly there again. It was a terrible rebirth, of suffering and tears. The beer and swinging, for any reason whatsoever, grinning, I set out for home. Since then, I feel pretty good so far. Although it was hard work but to write this.
I can cope with that need. Hopefully I will.
But at least this feeling is gone, to have made a mistake.
I am free and I have again discovered the light in the darkness.
that I may find it.
Sun is now so it will be broken apart. I had torn the ass kitten again to where it was possible, but they had to destroy it.
I have a very long time nothing written here. Is because I've nunmal bought the book in which I wrote to the last. Since this is now full but, I must escape back to my journal. And rejoice: it is the darkest chapter that I write.
ran for months my relationship with my girlfriend no longer correct. We are constantly zofften, were annoying us constantly. We saw less and less. But I loved my girlfriend and do it still. So I decided to make fire again and save the whole. I went over to her, gave her more time to meet their Zickereien tried to tolerate what me, even if self-praise stinks, but very well managed. There was something in motion, was actually getting better. The relationship gave me back a lot of fun, I could laugh and was happy. Until the fatal day came when I returned from Poland. I had been away for a week, the e-mail correspondence with my old man had me believe that she actually missed me. If they have done so, whatever. Well, I already weeks had discussed with her that she could still go to the event taking place that evening open-air, but I would not. After 16 hours of bus probably understandable. The next day we were right then, told that we had made the week so were, as always in bed, had sex and really it was a sauschöner day. However, there was something different with it. Well, I thought nothing of it further. Strangely, the rapid upward curve of the relationship has stagnated right now. That surprised me. Finally, this week had increased the desire, very much.
But then, last Wednesday, met me a hammer. I asked my friend if we go before I went to tennis training would see. She said no because she had to learn for their exams. I believed her, she has actually tests. So I went to the training and had Fun. Lumpkins was so friendly to us (Fe and me) with you after training. We drove past the house, of course, my girlfriend and I looked there, as always. But what I saw, I erfeute not - it slammed me down. My old lady got in a full of asshole idiots out of the car, whose stupidity is allowed beyond words. She wanted to learn, then? Aha, interesting way. - I was ready. You lied to me then. What reason did they do?
I let fly after all, had nothing for the nerves. WoE No, no homework, nothing. My sister finally convinced me to go with her to the party on the occasion of her last class of the written examination. My sister is yes to the same school as my girlfriend. Consequently, know their classmates my girlfriend and me. Me by sight, but they know that I am the brother. Blah.
Anyway, when the alcohol the girls in their theatrical stages Laber did and I put on the MP3 player found out my sister something she could not tell me in my current major depressive constitution. Also in relation to the nearby train tracks, with whom I flirted. Zugausweichen nunmal is a great game.
The next day - I was not in school, sleep could not. - It was just after twelve, my sister said, had learned what to do. And I broke down: my friend had on the open-air with said guy was going. It was seen as she kissed him and held hands with him.
you betrayed me so ... Why the bloody hell are you doing this? I had you ever been a reason? Great way to thank me for well over a half years. A six-hour discussion followed with my girlfriend. Just four hours, they denied the incident. She would have never told me. And almost four weeks, ago. I sent them home. At that moment I wanted to die. Just die. The pain I felt was just all killing. She was the first man, who managed to break my pride. Thank you, thank you. It does still hurt so much, to destroy this kind of relationship. If she can not just say that they do not feel has more? But apparently they still had the. She would have had no reason, be it just happened. But why has it still made with the flat wanker? Why they lied to me to see him? - I do not know to this day. She said yes, "as daft as it sounds, I did not mean to hurt in some way." - "Have you SUUUPER attempt it, honest bitch!".. That was the conversation about this.
separated Anyway, I am on the night of Friday to Saturday from her. I could not live with that. The relationship and trust had been destroyed. Irretrievably. It is still so surreal to me as though I were beside me and looked at a very stressful film. But in the moments where I find the reality, the pain hits me with the force of a bullet.
Well, it was over. I had called her at night, she asked to come to the pub. But she would not. I drank a brief and went. And I made the decision. I called her again. She wanted to come back, so I found myself compelled to finish the whole thing on the phone. No sooner had I placed the receiver out of hand, came over me Haulkrampf as I had never seen him. I did not know how this is to cry. For years I had it not done more. I grabbed my dog, Backpack and a Six-Pack Premium Pils, left the house, took me to the Viking area and got drunk evil. The Jägermeister helped.
But instead of me feeling better two days later, it got worse. I could not bear the thought of having it not happen again in his arms, to have it not happen again kissed. I could not sleep once again. I slept the weekend with only three or four hours. And so unmotivated these days as I was never was. So I wrote her a text message saying that I wanted to meet with her. I was even willing to forgive her and start over again.
Today I met with her. Viking area. It was already there when I arrived. We talked. But the way we were sitting there hurt so scary, that's indescribable. She was so near and yet so far. Right next to me was the little body that I love you with every fiber. But the tape was broken.
When we went we were annoying the mosquitoes to the benches, I opened a beer, smoked the fourth cigarette. I could not stand it anymore. I took her in his arms. It afforded me not only pressed it to correct. We had not long embraces. We sat a long time so that the knot swelled in my neck, she wept. I asked them how they see it. Whether a new start of it perhaps would be to try it just once more. She said she had only to itself to come clean themselves suffer again. Anyone who believes it. Even in that moment, she lied to me. I know it. We will never get back together. Never. It hurt incredibly. Again and again I learned new heights in negative territory.
It started to rain, the Clock gene walked nine. Their time - they had to go home. She asked me to accompany them. I did not at first. Reluctantly I went.
She took my hand. It was, as always, but yet so strange, so painful. In their corner, the point of departure had come. I looked at her a long time. I probably had tears in his eyes. So will you. I wanted to kiss her, but did not trust me. The next high point. Until she finally said "Kiss me.". I let mich nicht zweimal bitten. Zum wohl letzten Male küsste ich sie. Ich hatte sie nie zuvor so geküsst. Es war nunmal der Abschied. Wir sagten uns, dass wir uns lieben, was nicht gerade hilfreich war, in diesem Moment. Sie musste gehen. Ich blieb stehen, sah ihr die ersten drei Schritte nach, drehte mich um. Der Wikingerplatz, dort wollte ich wieder hin. Man ist so ungestört dort, nie kommt jemand vorbei. Es hätte nur mich und meine Melancholie gegeben. Doch ich hatte keine Kraft dazu. Nach 20 Metern schon setzte ich mich an eine Wiese, unterdrückte den Heulkrampf, öffnete das zweite Bier. Ich sah ihr weiter nach, bis sie verschwand.
Und dann, plötzlich, ging es mir besser. Ich hatte getan, was ich noch tun wollte. Es tut noch always hurt, but at least I am sure that the relationship was not a failure to me and give it a second time will probably. My pride was suddenly there again. It was a terrible rebirth, of suffering and tears. The beer and swinging, for any reason whatsoever, grinning, I set out for home. Since then, I feel pretty good so far. Although it was hard work but to write this.
I can cope with that need. Hopefully I will.
But at least this feeling is gone, to have made a mistake.
I am free and I have again discovered the light in the darkness.
that I may find it.
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